18, going on 19 years I have walked this earth. There are others here who are considered by God's law to be my brothers. Yet there are many faults found in them as well as me, for I am one of them.

I spent a long while yet a short time trying to live up to the people's standards. I can remember the times through childhood, school, home, times when i've cursed to fit in, desired to be like others, desired female's attention, loathing my appearance. "He's not cute. He's not my type. I don't like you like that. Look at his clothes." Times when i've wanted approval from my fathers, and from society, always not being good enough. "Guys don't do those kind of things. You should play sports. You are only worth something if you play sports."

Through pain and abandonment i was brought to Truth. I was alone, I was abanboned by this world, shunned and ridiculed. I was thrown into the cold snow weeping and afraid--trusting noone. A Man came up to me and took me in. He showed me things noone else in this world could have shown me. He loved me as a father, He definitely was not of this world. I couldn't help but notice His hands...two wounds, one on each hand. He was the one who took my sin and imperfection and loved me like no other. He told me His name... It was Jesus.

I now know that I am worthless to this world, but of eternal worth to God. Man is useless in filling voids. Can the lost lead the lost? Can a brother fill the void of a father? All in this world has proven themselves failures in that area. But God, the one who loves me eternally, who cared when noone cared has taken me under His wing, and loved me like no other. Man, I seek you no longer. Woman, your affection is not mine. God will bring me a true woman, a wife who is of Him. Praise God for His love. He is my Father and I am His son. May the other lost sheep find Him quickly.